Saturday, December 4, 2010

Before you read this poem- I wrote this in no particular order.  Instead of thinking about this as a timeline or story, think of it as flipping through a stack of pictures.

One
On my familiar journey,
I tell myself that the next song that I hear will tell me
How to deal with my problems, or the meaning of life.
I’m sure it would have
But I forgot to listen to the lyrics.
I agree.
Two
Most of the seeds from any tree
Will never sprout.
You could blame that on the tree they fell from.
For blocking the sunlight with its canopy
And drinking all of the water.
But I would rather think of it as chance.
Three
The problem with saying:
“Everything is physics.”,
Is that the thought processes
That are used to understand that statement
Seem to negate the logic
That they use to prove it,
Right at the root.
Four
If I could, I would pull down the wind,
With the spirit of tug-of war,
And only let it blow when we want to fly kites.
I would catch all the snow,
In a spice jar,
And sprinkle it out when we have thick gloves and hot chocolate.
If we try,
Maybe we can convince the trees to grow us a home,
And the rain to water our gardens.
Five
We’ve been here long enough
That I doubt this place will ever lose our imprint.
It seems memories have,
And gain,
Weight.
Six
I was upset
When the physical world followed suit,
And for once followed the example that our souls were setting.
I was changing,
But it’s easy to miss
The familiar.
Seven
Casually,
We can denounce the holy and the horrible.
With enough red ink
There are enough mistakes that need correcting
To last us a lifetime.
However;
I warn-
Don’t forget,
That we are not the only
Or the last.
Eight
The idea of leaving
Is not one that I am opposed to.
I guess
Guilt
Is natural enough,
Which is not to say
Comfortable enough.
Nine
Money
Is an umbrella
On a very windy day.
Ten
I know
The Bumps in the road
And where the floorboards creak.
I have made friends with all of the trees
Around here.
A quarter of the dust
In these rooms
Is mine.
Eleven
We speak
Only in minor chords, and
We breathe
Only fire,
To eachother.
Twelve
We find comfort
In repetition
And that tingly feeling
Right between hope and the unknown. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My body is a big stupid animal that my Soul lugs around.  A piece of meat that my Soul is stuck to.  A connection to (as well as something that my Soul must protect from) the physical world.  A mess of confusion and hormones.  Hunger and defecation. 
I am grateful for my body because it gives me my senses and connects me with other bodies- I only hope I can reach the Souls that I know that they are stuck to. 
My body has and always will be an infant.  The Soul is the only part of us that matures.  Our parents teach us how to take care of our bodies and hand over responsibility just when things start getting big and messy. 
“No, body, you can’t sleep or eat, right now.  I’m busy writing.”
“Yes, body, I understand your reproductive instincts, but that is not socially acceptable.”
To all the Souls that are reading this- I know how it feels to be annoyed with that thing we all drag around.  I know what it’s like to be self-conscious of it.  My advice is to concentrate on your true self, that beautiful Soul.
To my society- my body tries so hard to fit in.  But my Soul is free, and for that I will not apologize.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I need a halo.
Wrap my head in golden light.
A harp to play,
and wings for flight.
That's how to be an angel, right?
Except when I'm dark I'm happy, I'm clean.
I've never been seen 'cause except when I'm wrong I'm right.
Right?
Except when I'm loosing my sight I'm sighted.
Either way frightened.
Tight.
Tightened.
Except when I'm climbing I'm on top.
Or falling.
Running or crawling.
Driving or stalling.
We've never been dropped 'cause we've never been carried.
Can't have divorce if you haven't been married.
Except when I'm the same I am the same.
Tame.
If not the cause, blame.
If not pride, shame.
Ice or the flame.
Same and the same.
So strong and confused I fall to my knees, 'cause here is my engine but I've misplaced the keys.